It’s been just over one year since I first self-published Dreams of Beautiful Whisper as an eBook. It’s been a pretty wonderful year as a few hundred copies of my book has made it’s way into the hands of readers. Certainly not off the charts, but a number I’ve been pleased with as it’s allowed me to kind of dip my toe to test the waters.
Generally speaking, I’m not a timid person. I’m not arrogant, but I don’t have low self-esteem either. I love me, I love my life and I’m proud of my accomplishments. So imagine my surprise when I realized just how incredibly nervous I was about putting my first book out to the public for strangers to love or hate.
This is why I found that the toe dipping approach worked well for me. While I love my friends and family, having them tell me that they loved or enjoyed my book felt biased and at times even challenging to fully believe – well of course they love it, they love me. I feel lucky to have a very wonderful and supportive network of people around me who truly believe in me.
But what made my heart soar even more, was when complete strangers, who don’t know a thing about me, started to give me feedback. The lowest rating I’ve received is 3-stars and even those still talk about how they enjoyed the book and look forward to reading the next one.
As a newbie to writing fiction, I’ve spent a ton of time researching the ins and outs of writing and publishing. One thing that has surprised me is the number of authors who say “just get it written and move on to the next one”. The theory is that a writer can get paralyzed by perfectionism. By needing to do just one more read through; one more re-write. From that angle, I get it and it does make sense. However, I’m not a dump and run kind of gal. Even after making my book available publicly, I still kept taking another look and pondering parts of what I’d written and what I hadn’t written. In my heart I knew there were more improvements that could be made.
So I kept reviewing and pondering and working with other people to get more feedback and suggestions. In the end, I’ve decided to go ahead with a pretty substantial re-write. Don’t panic if you’ve read the book! The actual “story” isn’t changing, but I do think that you’ll like the revisions when they’re all done. Plus I am still working hard on Book 2, which I hope to even better from the growth I’ve gone through and the way the Book 1 re-write will spill over into it.
Throughout this journey, I’ve learned that for the moment, I’m not in a position to be pumping out new books every 3-6 months. Perhaps when I’m able to write full-time that can happen, but not right now. And my grandfather always used to tell me that if something is worth doing, it’s worth doing right.
I’ve read books that have been published and reached incredible heights of success, only to find that I didn’t really find the writing to be anything spectacular. I don’t claim to be any sort of literary genius, not even close. I’m writing to entertain and hopefully to offer a little bit of light of positive influence to a few people. However, I still want to make sure that I put my absolute best foot forward.
So, for now, the current version of Dreams of Beautiful Whisper will be unpublished and I will also do my best to keep you updated more consistently on the progress.
Thank you for the part you have played so far in this journey – you’re the reason I want to offer my absolute best.