I believe in progressive thinking, dreaming in colour and believing in ourselves. I think some people are at risk of having that perspective cross over into arrogance, but for the most part it is just a mentally healthy way to live your life.
When I first wrote Dreams of Beautiful Whisper, I didn’t have any grand plans or preconceived ideas as to how it might all turn out. I put together a query letter (or 50 versions perhaps) and sent off a couple of dozen. I was excited when I got my first rejection because it was making it real. Then life got in the way and Dreams of Beautiful Whisper got shelved for a couple years – and boy was that a good thing! When I got back into it, I polished and polished and polished (which it seriously needed).
Seriously disliking the query letter process, I decided to self-publish under my own publishing company of Morgan Books & ePublishing. It’s been a learning curve with ups and downs and it’s done two things for me.
- increased my respect for those who publish books full time and
- increased my empathy for new authors.
I’ll admit, I’m frustrated at how slowly things are taking to build, but the beauty and wonder of it is that there is growth and progress every single day. A new follower, a new friend, a new review, sales, interviews – there’s always something.
I was very nervous when people started reading my book, especially people I know. I love the book and I wanted it to be good, but it’s virtually impossible to critique your own work. So I have been incredibly relieved at the strength of the positive response I have been getting – from people I know and complete strangers. Once the relief set in, shock soon followed – I’m still in awe when people start praising my book. But they have also secured some thoughts I originally kept quietly to myself and a close few and that is where my dreaming in colour comes in to play.
My ultimate goal is for this series to be adapted to film. I can see the whole thing play out in my minds eye and I would be just thrilled to see that become a reality. Several readers have expressed the same opinion. As such, I have resumed sending out query letters and am on the hunt for an agent who has experience in selling the film rights for adapting a novel to film. It’s still a process I don’t particularly enjoy, but I think I’m better off finding people with the experience and contacts to pursue this avenue.
Even with that thought in mind, I recently went out on a limb and sent messages to a couple of very prominent people that I have an arms length relationship with at best. One I haven’t heard back from, nor do I really expect to. The other one was polite but dismissive – again, pretty much what I expected. None-the-less, I contacted these people because so much of our society is about “who” you know, not “what” you know or how good you are. Because of this I will continue to seek out the opportunities of people I can contact who may be able to give me introductions and will also continue pursuing agents, while at the same time continuing my own work of marketing, promoting and writing (hopefully more and faster!)
But all of this got me thinking about my future and the challenges I’ve endured along my journey. There is a lot to be said for the growth process and the strength we gain by slugging through the mud – but I think it is at times taken to extremes. I’m not a person with an attitude of entitlement. I’ve worked hard my whole life and I’ve done well in some parts and terrible in other parts and I’ve been at it since I was 16. Sure it builds character, but I think everyone deserves the chance of catching a break at some point in their life.
Because of all of this random thinking and pondering, I made a decision. When I grow up, I’m gonna do things differently. When I reach my goals (yes saying “when” is an affirmation not a statement of arrogance) – I am going to set aside certain days to listen to anyone who wishes to book an audience with me for whatever self-serving purpose they choose.
I don’t say this with an arrogance of expectation that I am going to become rich and famous… BUT if I do manage to achieve my goals and I happen to reach of level of notoriety that results in people “wanting” to see if I can help them and perhaps give them a boost towards their goals, then I absolutely will make time for that to happen.
I will also adopt a policy that anyone who requests an appointment with me (by phone or in person) will get one, regardless of how big or small I may end up being in the world of influencers. I don’t think anyone in this world is above anyone else. Those who are rich and famous are no better than those who aren’t, they simply have more resources and more connections. In my opinion, the right thing to do is to make those resources and connections available to help others whenever possible.
I’m not saying I will help everyone – but I WILL listen.
So there you have it, that’s a little piece of me dreaming in colour, thinking big and what I plan to do if I manage to pull it all off.
And I really can’t say enough how much I appreciate all the encouragement and support I get from the people surrounding me. Thank you!